The way of love
is the way of no-expectation.
(Osho)
In his
book ‘Io e Tu’ Martin Buber talks about the philosophy of the meeting, about
how we are created by the fundamental encounter with the other: we were
nothing, or only things, before we were brought together. Or in other words, a
human being only becomes a human being in the middle of other human beings.
Once this has been said, it can be no wonder that according to Buber, the love
for the other person is our intimate destiny. He believes that in the time we
currently live in, we are declined to operate only in the world of It, in the
world of things, and to forget about this love for the other person. We tend to
reduce our fellow human beings to things, to describe them, analyse them, put
them in a certain order.
But this is nowhere near the world of Me and You, as
in that world the other appears in all his uniqueness, he is no longer a thing
between things , not a he or a she, not a certain way of being, not someone I
know or have experienced, but You, a You that fills the horizon, that has now
become my way of looking at the world. In fact, in this relation, I see
everything in the light of the other person, he is All and everything exists
through him, by him. There can be
nothing between the You and the Me, and this relation exists only in the
present. I act on this You as he acts on me, for every relation is reciprocity.
The relation has become our way to see the universe, and it’s only through You
that I understand the meaning of trees, flowers, or a blue sky.
In the
words of Buber himself: “ What can I experience from You? Nothing, as You
cannot be experienced. What can I know from You? All or nothing, as there is no
partial knowledge about You.”
I had the
chance to meet this You once in my life, not so long ago. I met another human
being and through this relationship, I learned how to see him as You, as a
being in all his comleteness and uniqueness. I learned to stand in his light
and to look at the world through him, to not experience him but to live by the
connection we now had. I affected him just as much as he affected me, I acted
in him just as much as he acted in me. I didn’t look for this relation, and
even though I surrendered myself to it, it wouldn’t have happened without me. I
became me by saying You, understood the meaning of this world only in our meeting.
I was nothing before, and nothing after, only in our meeting did I exist.
Some
would call this love, and I follow Buber on this matter: love is a fact to be
realised, it’s what exists between You and Me, it’s where a human being lives
in once he had the chance of this fundamentally deep encounter. Love also means
to take on a responsability for the You I’m in a relation with, in fact that’s
what defines the evenness between two beings that have love for each other.
Feelings are only accessory to this love, they are what comes with, what we
have, and therefore they can never be what defines our relation. What do
defines it is the essence of You, the essence of this being I am now
interconnected with. This You can never be the You of any other person but me,
for our relation exists only in the present, and only between me and this
person I have love for. There can be no third person, as I am the only one who
is faced, who is connected, with the strength of the uniqueness of my You. I
don’t see parts of my You, no characteristics or features that make him more
special than any other, but the wholeness of what he is, not only his soul or
his heart but all, and all at once.
This
wholeness is what made me put my own safety at risk, what made me go into
extremes only to witness the encounter with my You once again. Why don’t I stay
in the reality of my life, if that’s what I have to go back to after every
meeting? Because in order to live a full life, in order to become a being in
the living sense of that word, in order to be more than a thing among things, I
have to escape the world of It to make my way to the present, the present of
You. That’s the only way to become what I am and want to be. So I packed my
things and crossed the Atlantic ocean, to follow the destiny that was put upon
me by God and Martin Buber: as I stated before, that destiny being my love for
the You I’m encountering.
As I am
going on and on about love, an attentive reader could wonder, ‘what about
hate’? This is wat Buber states on this topic: For as long as love is blind,
and does not see the integrality of the being that is loved, it can never be in
the fundamental relation of Me and You. And as hate is bounded to stay blind
(you can hate only a part of a being), there is no possibility for hate to
enter this relation. From the moment in where one sees the being in his
wholeness, that one won’t be able to hate. I myself have never felt much for
feelings of hate, and I will agree with Buber that there is no way the same
connection can be felt through hate as through love. In fact, this connection
is what comes first, but it will never generate hate as it generates love. Once
you see the world through the eyes of a You, there is no place for hate.
Buber
compares the eyes of Me in the meeting with You with the eyes of a child, a
child too young to have any consciousness of himself as a being. He does not
see himself as I, and therefore can only respond to the world through a
relation of Me and You. That relation is what comes first, is what marks the
baby’s first encounter with his universum. An universum that in fact is not his
to have yet. Only when he starts knowing, and therefore owning, that universum,
and at the same time starts to see himself as an acting subject in the mirror,
will het enter the world of It. This derives from the fact that a child, still
in the womb of his mother, exists only of this complete, pure and natural
connection. That’s what he knows first, and therefore that’s what he will keep
looking for all his life. Once born, this child lives from one sleep into the
other, in the total reciprocity of the encounter. In that child one can find
why we need en keep needing this encounter so much: he stares, scrutinizes his
horizon, looks at the babyblue on his wall untill he had understood the essence
of that babyblue completely, has a deep contact with his teddybear. Both that
babyblue and his teddybear are now a You for the child, even if this You is
still immature, innate, an ‘a priori’ for the relationship.
The last time I spent
some time with a child, I was fascinated by the eyes he was able to set on the
world. These eyes were full of wonder and astonishment, he looked as if he
wanted to swallow everything he saw all at once. There is a reason why they say
one should never lose ‘the eyes of a child’, for this means to me that we
should never lose the ability of the encounter, of being in a relation between
Me and You.
Sadly
enough, we live in a world marked with ambiguity, and our attitudes are equally
double: we experience the world, learn what things are made of and how they are
composed, and through this process we make that world our own. But at the same
time we meet the essence and uniqueness of things, and from that moment on a
thing is no longer a thing, but a You.
There is no way, even if we sometimes
desire nothing more, to live only in and through this You, as we cannot live
only in the present: it would consume us. There is a way to live solely in the
past, but that’s not what I like to call life.
The truth is, one can not live
without It. But if he lives only with It, he will never be fully human.
If we look
at the history of the world as we know it, the constant evolution of a humanity
that is never satisfied, we see that we gain more and more knowledge about
nature, which, as we have known since Foucault, translates in power, about all
kinds of techniques to produce and reproduce, about social interactions, about
the mind and the body, and so on. I tend to see a paradox in this trend, for as
we have interactions with our fellow beings that only become richer and more
complex, this has as only result that the world of It is growing bigger every
day. How can we explain this?
Those interactions are characterised by the
knowledge we cumulate about them, and by the way in which we try to order them:
which kind of interaction, with whom, etc. We organize our social life in an
attempt to make it clear and manageable, but unfortunately this can never bring
us to a true encounter, to a connection with a You: we stay and remain in the
world of It, and even if It may be a very significant relationship, it will
never be more than a thing, it will never truly affect us. We may have a
thousand of relatives, friends and acquaintances, none of them will move us to
our core, and we will remain in inertia, not even close to what life could be.
And it’s
getting worse, the world of It only grows bigger as we proceed, as we keep
gathering little pieces of information on what surrounds us. This is what men
call ‘the development of intellectual activity’, which in fact is a development
of dead activity. Dead because it will never conceive a state of true living,
of fully significant encounters with a You. On the contrary, the world of You
is overpowered by all this intellectual, technical and social violence. We
think we are getting smarter, while in fact all we do is kill our chances on a
real life.
We could
say the spirit of the human being is his anwer on the You he is encountering.
That spirit stands between You and Me, and the human lives in his spirit if he
finds a way to answer his You. But there is a problem here: the stronger his
answer gets, the more that answer is holding on to his You untill it will
suffocate it. Only silence kan give his You freedom, a presence of his spirit
without any manifestation. Every answer would take You to the world of It, and
this may be the greatest pain a human being has to deal with in life, it’s the
price he pays for his knowledge, his works, his images.
So in my opinion, we
have to learn how to live within our spirit without giving it a voice, we have
to find a way to keep this spirit silent, even if all that spirit wants is to
cry out how much it was affected by the encounter with You. That spirit wants
to know if he can trust the You, wants to be sure if pain isn’t the only thing
he will find at the end, wants to say how much it was moved by You. It may be
the hardest thing to keep all those voices, all those questions, silent, but
it’s worth the try, for this is the only way we can remain in the present of
You, and not in the past of memories, that by definition are only things, or in
the future of questions, that are still things to become.
We have to let the
present of our encounter with You affect us, we have to jump in head first, and
from the moment we start with the questions and the doubts, even if they come
directly from what is affected: our spirit, they will kill You, and take it
into the world of It.
The world
of It is constituted of the absolute sovereignty of causality. Everything that
happens has been triggered and is a trigger for something else, and the human
being is caught in this ungoing order of things.
But there is a way to escape
this fatal determination, as the human being knows that he not only has the
world of It but also the world of You, the world of the relation, in which he
can hide from this exhausting causality to be in the freedom and reciprocity of
the encounter. In fact, he perpetually goes on between the world of It and the
world of You, where destiny and freedom are bounded to one another: only in
freedom can one find his destiny, only when released from every causality can
one truly be free and will the answer on that freedom appear as his destiny. In
this sense, Buber claims that the union between freedom and destiny gives life
it’s meaning.
I found these thoughts significant and inspirational, and they
helped me believe that when one follows his path, independent of every order or
causality he should pursue, he will eventually find what life has designed for
him. If one makes a decision from his deepest essence, not taking any causality
or ‘I should’ in account, that one will be freed from the world of It to enter
the world of You. Meaningful encounters will follow, and he will start living a
true life.
I think we are all too often caught in a certain order of what life
should be: we should finish highschool, we should go to university, we should
get married, we should start working; this all being part of the world of It,
and therefore this all can never have a real meaning that moves us in the
purest sense. All this will never give any significance to our life, will never
be what we will recall as the life-changing moments we have witnessed. There is
only one should for every human being: he should know the encounter, the
present, the You, at least once in his life.
I had the fortune of running into
one of those moments in the past. I suddenly found myself in the present, in
the middle of an encounter with a You that chose me, but that would never be
without me. It changed my being, but I couldn’t keep my spirit still for very
long, and there came the questions: ‘where is this going, what should I do,
should I stay here to continue the order of my life as it was designed for me,
or should I go and start living my real life, will I get hurt, will I always
know this relation in the way it was revealed to me,…’, and there came the
world of It. The pain that came along with all this doubts, the pain of
discovering that I was in fact not free, but bound to a certain causality, the
pain of falling into a existential crisis: ‘who am I? Who will I become?’,
would be nothing compared to the pain and uncertainty of leaving everything
behind me to follow my destiny, so I stayed and did what everyone expects of
me.
And I was safe but imprisoned.
Caged into the world of It, that marks more
and more our world, our society. That world of It that crushes the human being
under a heavy, massive fatality, until that human being believes there is no
way out, nothing between voluntary slavery and useless rebellion. But what is
in fact deadly for the human being is believing in this fatality, for the world
of You is never closed: who approaches it with an open spirit, will find
freedom. So I know there is still hope, hope that I will once find the courage
to discard myself from causality and to take the decision with all I have in
me, and hope that on this moment, my destiny will reveal itself.
After
every true encounter, we are not what we were. We have changed, we have
received something we didn’t have before: a presence, a presence that at the
same time is also a strength. However, this is only possible in true
reciprocity. After the encounter with my You, I changed indeed, and I will
never be the same as I was before. This can be scary, but it’s also what makes
life worthwhile: I am now more than I was, because I have met my You in a
certain present, and now I have my memories to recall this one moment of true
living.
To
conclude these writings, I want to say something about language. Mankind speaks
many different languages, and still the spirit knows only one. So when we talk
about Io e Tu, Je et Tu, Ich und Du or Me and You, we talk in one and only
language: the language of the spirit, of the essence of our being. It’s what
Matisyahu, a Jewish reggae singer says in one of his songs: ‘I give myself to
You from the essence of my being’.
Lady Bird
Geciteerd werk
Buber, Martin, Je et tu, (1935), éditions Montagne, Paris.